All Things
Realizing I only take the time to write when I’m at a crossroad — that’s why most of my posts sound so heavy. — so bear with ya girl. More often than not I’m in a deep place of gratutude, peace and the joy of each simple thing in my current now / moment.
My current timeline jump has my schedule full of movement that I could not have eveR named for myself if I tried. Each moment feels surreal, because how did each intentional moment before now build up to this now?! How is this reality possible?
& Even with the BOOMING and BLOOMING of each project I give my presence to, I feel at an eternal confusion over my love life.
My confusion feels triggered again having fasted from men the second half of 2024 and then returning to an ex in 2025 as “exposure therapy” / effort to adjust my metaphysical to open to new possibilities with man only to feel less desriable.
This is likely a larger identity release, because I’m older & my priorities are much much different this time around being on this leveled up timeline. But I’m still just confused as eveR as why it’s this hard to call in a match / mirror who can stand toe to toe with me.
My true true self knows that this confusion is useless to dwell on.
Everytime I was confused about “WHY?!” or even completely devastated about the why, the answer showed up so powerfully, showing and telling me why I had to walk down this very specific route.
Because I love so hard, I’ve gotten lost in my relationships, problem solving for men, and could only imagine how much of my current power and purpose would not have been lived if I had submitted / made myself small enough to stay.
Holding self in this narrow journey walking an unbeaten path.
Grateful for all the life I’m on the other side of — that allows me to trust in the confusion and chaos of this now.
Praying that the ancestors hear my heart’s cries and send their love down from the heavens to hold me. I pray the earth hears me and takes all my sorrows and confusion into it’s deep to be transformed and released. I pray that all the waking physical world, and all the forces of the metaphysical world work in my favor and align me with my highest path.
I pray that everything for me meets me as easy, cool, calm, healing and nourishing as water is. I pray for the total protection of myself and Oshún from our own selves and from others. I pray that my desires are protected, that my journey / highest timeline is protected.
Thank you for all the nourishment covering myself and Oshún. Thank you for all the protection. Thank you for all the Divine alignment. Thank you for the beauty, love, magnetism and peace. Thank you for the Joy.
ASE. ASE. ASE!